Well, the day's not over, but it's still been long. I seriously cannot wait 'til the kids go back to school!! Devyn is driving me insane. Who the hell came up with the bright idea to have school vacations anyway?? I love my kids but geez.....sometimes they can push my buttons. Especially when they're around each other for too long, but I suppose in light of other situations, it could be much worse.
Oooh! A good song just came on. "Am I your one and only desire...am I the reason you breathe, or am I the reason you cry?.......Always, always, always..........I love you, I hate you. I can't get around you. I breathe you, I taste you. I can't live without you. I just can't take anymore, this life of solitude. I'm guessing I'm out the door and now I'm done with you........." I had to type that one out while I was singing it :D.
Back to my regularly scheduled programming........("WHY WOULD YOU TEAR MY WORLD APART??"-----God, I love that part of the song!)
Anyway, so even though my kids are driving me crazy, I know it can be a whole lot worse. I am at such a loss as to what to do or what to say to his mom. She's so broken up and I can only imagine how she feels. It makes me wanna cry---actually, it has made me cry--and he's not even my son. It's so strange how one dumb mistake we make can change the map of our life permanently. I think about all the times my life could have been changed for the worse by my own actions and it scares the shit outta me. Then I think about how my kids are getting to an age where I couldn't rescue them if they happened to get into trouble like Logan did and that scares me even worse.
Overall though, it's been a pretty good day. I got a really nice surprise phone call from a very good friend...and, I got to see a pretty good friend later on. I swear she still looks like she did in the 4th grade....bitch! :D
Now I have to go think about my 5 things to be grateful for. I have a few on my mind....but, we'll see what i come up with.
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