I swear to God, I will NOT be apologizing for anything I said to him earlier. Usually by this time I'm all "I'm sorry, I was being a bitch......." blah blah. Not this time.
I swear if it wasn't so hard to get a fucking divorce, I'd do it today. I'm tired of this shit. I'm tired of pretending. I'm tired of acting like it's all okay with me.
It's not like I haven't been through this before, but fuck!!! this is almost too much right now. He's an ass and that's all there is to it. I love my kids and w/out him, I wouldn't have them, but right now that's about the only positive I can see. Yes, we're friends but I wouldn't take this shit from anyone.....except I feel forced to because I'm married to him. At the moment, about as far away as I can get is the living room....lol. That's so lame.
I'm really lame 'cause I can live my life in quotes and lyrics. Or maybe I just read and listen to too much music. Still lame. What the fuck happened to me?
I know he can't be happy with the situation either. I'm sure he feels trapped. I mean, clearly he was ready to walk away 2 years ago. I wish we would have just went through with it. If there is a "limbo" or "hell", this is it. Seriously.
"Everything you say to me takes me one step closer and I'm about to break............."
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